Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today
Why am I so uptight today ?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time a lie
A face that laughs every time I fall - and watches everything
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
right underneath my skin

It's like I'm
Paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a
Whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I
Can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can
But everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when they close their eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall - and watches everything
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
right inside your skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

ONE STEP CLOSER

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say at me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these toughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Shut up when I'm talking to you

WITH YOU

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static
And put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake
Slow to react
Even tough you're so close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back

It's trust the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you

You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes

I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor
The rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake
Slow to react
Even tough you're close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back

No
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

It's trust the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you

You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
x2

No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

You
Now I see
Keeping everything inside
With you
You
Now I see
Even when I close my eyes
x2

POINTS OF AUTHORITY

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken

You love the thing I say I'll do
The way I'll hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
my pride is broken

Refrain:
You like to think you're never wrong
You want to act like you're someone
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what you've been through
You live what you learn

CRAWLING

Refrain:
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem

To find my self again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Refrain

Discomfort, Endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...

To find my self again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Refrain x2

RUN AWAY

Graffiti decorations
Underneath a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
I learned were never true

Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again
Guilty by association
You point the finger at me again

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true

I wanna run away
Never say godd-bye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Gonna run away

BY MYSELF

What I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Did I hide my pride
From these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I
Sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I
Try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on
When I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up gettin hurt again
By myself [my self]
I ask why but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take it
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer - by myself

How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
I'me out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside

IN THE END

It starts with
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clocks ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on
But didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me
Will eventually
Be a memory
Of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing
I don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you where mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering All the times you fought with me
I'm surprised
It got so far
Things aren't the way they before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it mean to me
Will eventually
Be a memory
Of a time when I

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know ...

A PLACE FOR MY HEAD

I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky
The dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give life to the moon assuming
The moon's gonna owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me
You do
Favors and then rapidly
You just
Turn around and start asking me
About
Things that you want back from me
I'm sick of the tension
Sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place
To feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don't understand
You'll see it's not meant to be
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Maybe someday I'll be just like you
And
Step on people like you do and
Run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm
Used to be strong
Used to be generous
But you should've know that you'd
Wear out your welcome
Now you see
How quiet it is
All alone
I'm so

Sick of the tension
Sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place
To feed your greed
While
I find a place to rest

You try to take the best of me
Go away

FORGOTTEN

From the top of the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I've forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The memory won't escape me
But why should I care

There's a place so dark you can't see the end
Skies cock back - and shock that which can't defend
The rain then sends dripping
An acidic question
Forcefully the power of suggestion
Then with the eyes tightly shut
Looking through the rust and rot
And dusta
A spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and it's dark again

In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

Moving all around
Screaming of the ups and downs
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound
The wheels go 'round and the sunset creeps past the
Street lamps chain-link and concrete
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats
On down the streets till the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again

Now you got me caught in the act
You bring the thought back
I'm telling you that
I see it right through you

PUSHING ME AWAY

I've lied
To you
The same way that I always do
This is
The last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

Everything falls apart
Even the poeple who never frown

Eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see you're testing me pushes me away

I've tried
Like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is
The last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you